fuck maa life

shoot me. I'm SOfa king stressed out to the max maan. Like seriously, this is the point where i would seriously start over. I regret Soooooo many things because look what happens, i get shit. My life pretty much suck. Anybody wanna give me $500? -___- pfft. i can't just shit out money. I feel bad for my family. My mom just got out of the hospital n' stuff. So sunday i'm going to look for sponsors and i really really need all my friends to help out :/ like i'm in the deepest shit so far in my life. Guess who's going to pray really hard tonight -___- 

So today, i was sobbing soaked in tears and the rain. What a coincidence.. whenever i'm upset/sad it rains.. perfect timing. Maybe tomorrow there's thunderstorms above my head. Ha! tomorrow is another competition day. It's at Claremont High and we're finally doing our military squads. hmm, i'm hoping tomorrow would seriously bring back the old alexis. I can't wait till junior year. Fsho, I'd be so much happier and finally, AT LAST, freedom. i hope. Next year, my parents wouldn't nag as much. and yadadaa.. 

BUS BUDDY? tomorrow? i'll feed you breakfast 'n youu know it! siike. 

ahh, i need to pack my costumes tomorrow and snacks.

good thing i have a lot of fruit juices in my fridge. 

i'm bringing " brandon " for goodluck. 

anyways, goodnight. sleeep tight