Confused much?

Well, i've been having crazy ass mood swings. Today was not my day. Last night, i had a late conversation on the phone. Talking about how i felt with a lot of things. I needed that. You see, what's wrong with me is that, sometimes i just keep my emotions inside. But sometimes and somehow i burst out and start spilling words. I have so many questions but too scared to ask. I have so many thoughts but too shy to speak up. And procrastination is a no no.. I really really really need to fix that. dead serious.


Today, woke up feeling wtf.. another day. I'm sick and tired of dealing with stuff that i can't do. Can't they just understand the fact that it's hard? I know i'm not being specific with things right now but if you really know me, you'll understand..

During school, i appreciate the fact that people were trying hard to cheer me up. Like nathan polar bear trying to get my attention just to make me laugh during 5th. Alex " the cuban one " gave me his ex-girlfriend's rice krispy because he felt bad and they got into a big fight. * by the way, i'm sitting between them in our math group -__-. So i get spit both sides when they argue. But nathan and i are super chill, like we just don't care.

After school, we had practice. What do you expect? it's nationals weeek. We're leaving glendale heading to anahiem on thursday then comp on fri - sat. Then dland on sunday. exciting..

So, basically two more months till one year with brandon. I know he can be a dumbo sometimes but love takes forgiveness. I've been waiting, praying, begging for a guy that would treat me not just like a princess, but a queen. I'm not a materialistic girlfriend.. just letting you know..

Since i had a bad day today, I ended up reading brandon's blog saying :

SUNDAY, MARCH 22, 2009

Love

Hmm love is a very strong word. And unfortunately it gets thrown around and miss used or even miss taken. Well im just glad to say that i found love and that its true. There is nothing better in the world when you know that someone can care or "love" you so much. It just seems crazy to me that some people including myself can be so naive about relationships and love. Well thats enough for tonight.

P.S. nothing can compare to 100 ;] love you babe

POSTED BY SNEAKERHI AT 10:08 PM


^^^ - wow i started to cry my ass out. I neeeded that today man.. I'm so thankful having such a boyfriend like brandon. I've been hurt so many times and I was so close of giving up till i met this unexpected guy that handed me sunlight on a silver platter. Just that one night, I suddenly fell for the guy that i thought was just a friend. I know we went to fast but this love couldn't wait any longer. I don't see myself with anybody else but brandon. Inseparable* I know he thinks he doesn't deserve me but I wouldn't leave him for another mr. perfect.. which doesn't exist in any guy i know but him.. Well he's trying his best haha.. Baby, nothing can compare to your 100 kisses (; combos & to your toes & to all those little things you do that gives me butterflies and tingles inside. I'm glad i found the love i've been looking for. There is seriously nothing better in the world when you know that someone can care and love you so much..well, Thank you for always being at your best.. & now i'm positive that i can say " always and forever " because it's true, why should i let go of this nice guy right? & why would he let go of a girl that's one of a kind? :)



happy happy happy 10th month babe.
i love you sooo much<3